A POEM ABOUT LOVE

My dear love, I wanted to share
My thoughts, my feelings and
What makes me despair
I want to share with you
What makes me happy; what makes me feel blue..
So you can sense that my love is honest and true.

Every day not a single minute
Passes by without you in it
Your skin, your voice, your body and your touch
All of these moments, I miss them so much.

You are so present, so deep in my heart
And our souls, I just know, will never part,
But circumstance and distance can be so overwhelming
They close doors and create doubt and we start blaming..

There are actions of mine and I know that for sure..
That feel so wrong, though my intentions are pure
They are painful and impossible to bear
And you feel it's all so unfair.

You can't run from yourself;
There is no place to hide
It just hurts you so deep
It hurts your heart and your pride.

Then I worry that if I continue to stay
Will it be wrong and will I be in your way?
I fear that I am not at all what you need
And that this truth will make my heart break and bleed.

Then I sit here and wipe away my tears
Wishing you could kiss away my fears
If only you knew how much.
I miss and need your embrace and your touch

I know I can't hide from my thoughts and my fear
And I know at these times I don't seem near
But you break down these walls
With the strength of your love
And then I feel blessed
From your LOVE!

My love for you runs so deep through my vein
That I dream of you, in spite of the pain.

-Teddy Bear

Revival

Its been a long time since i updated this blog... felt mood-less for a long time... from the last post till now, various events happened... from meeting new friends, to getting closer, and to a betrayal of a friend, to losing someone, n to meeting new friends again... its just like a cycle... but i just hope that i dont get betrayed again...
Its kinda sad though... treating one as a good or best friend, but getting betrayed by one... anyway, its been months since the incident n it cant be changed.... wat to do...? haiz...
Although it still hurts just thinking about it, but there is still a long way to go for my life to end.... cant do anything now other than to live with it...
As said by most positive people, 'There will always be a new morning'...
Oh ya, i wont be counseling anyone for sometime, unless mild cases...

Trust is just a word,
A word that I stopped believing in.
Betrayal is an action,
An action which stopped my trust.

I will be updating weekly unless i have the mood to write...

Happy Birthday and Halloween

Happy 20th Birthday to our 'Bro' Dante...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!

and HAPPY HALLOWEEN too...
Trick or Treat...

Sky Juice

Its gonna rain soon


GOD is going to give us free sky juice,
Feel the sky juice and release your sadness,
It takes us to heaven and we leave our fear,
No more rain, no more pain.

Just another day.


By, HZW @ Mika722

A New Hope

You are the Sun which shines upon me
You are the light which shines within me.
Your smile shed away my fear
Your happiness brings me new hope.

Here are some pics i took during this sem... A picture is worth a thousand words

Got this horoscope thingy from my sister... its kinda accurate though...

ARIES MAN

He always let other people walk in front of him, but he will get there
first. He is a very careful guy and small obstacles won't make him fall
easily even he thinks life is a very serious matter. He is as romantic as
any other Zodiac. He could look gentle, but inside he is as strong as steel.
Once he determine to do something, he is serious about doing it well. He
will keep any pressure or insult deep down inside without showing emotion.
You will never see his emotion of burden or disappointment and always wonder
what he thinks or feels. He will well kept his feeling.

You will never see a guy in this Zodiac involving in other people business.
He always concern with his own business. Sometimes he can be talkative, but
he will never give anyone advice if he has not been asked. If you ask for
advice, he will certainly give you one. He respects elderly and senior, so
you will see he is the type who visit his parents steadily or often.

He is a slightly shy but also a stubborn person. He will find many ways to
make you happy when you are with him, till you realize he is the important
person for you. Once he is in the 'Power Position', he will use his power
gently. He is a good leader and 'Gentleness' is one of his effective method
for exploiting his power. It is although he is borne to be a leader. He
never hide his ambition, and he is a workaholic. he will not take any
position that he has no control. He will work very hard to reach his goal
and satisfaction.

Compliment from his boss or superior are never enough for him, he want his
deserved reward. His deep insecurity make him reach and collecting valuable
things, and this you may think he is stingy. Actually he could easily
spending money to buy things, traveling or pay for things that makes him
happy and he think necessary for his need. He care what other people think
of him and want to get good comments or compliments.

Outside he looks like stone and steel, but inside he is a fragile person. He
will hide and cover up weak emotion and his sadness in order to maintain and
keep up his 'Image'. One method of cover up you could easily notice is
suddenly if he is quiet, cold, or act very strong or very secure. Often, he
feels insecure, even he is serious about his life and his own surrounding.

This is the man who never hurry to get marry, so hardly sit back and regret
about his marriage later. If he gets marry, he need to be very certain and
very sure. It will take a long time for such decision, so if you tell him
that you are 'breaking up' , you better forget him for good because he will
never coming back.

He always keep his promise. If he said he will meet you in your place in 2
hours then he will be there, unless there is a serious accident or
unavoidable things happen. He hate people who is late for date or any
appointment.

He like to think woman should be a follower and take care of family and
working is a man duty. He does not like to compete with his girl friend or
his wife at work because competition already exist with himself and other
people. He will be very proud if he can afford and care for his family. Do
not try to over power him or insult him, he can not stand it. He likes to be
in control of every things, every situations.

He like a 'Classy Woman' ,if she also comes from a good family then it is a
Plus. It will make him feel proud and very ego about her status. Flashy type
of woman , forget it. He like a perfect or a nearly perfect housewife. He
tend to be possessive. He will not tell you if he is mad at you, but will
act very moody to show you instead.

He like to hear sweet word and compliment so you can get his interest that
way. If he approaches you to ask you out, do not act too stubborn or fooling
around too much. He will get tired and just disappear. He has to feel
confident when he is around you, so knowing this fact you should know what
to do, right!

If you want him, you have to make him feel like he is the most important
person for you. He likes a kind hearted woman , polite and can get along
with his family. When he feels sad, do not leave him alone, but be very
supportive. Kind words and your smile will win him over, so this strong man
will be like a chicken in your palm.

Direct Translations

When, 啊瓜 = Agua = transexuals; then

西瓜 = Western agua
南瓜 = Southern agua
青瓜 = Green agua = the Hulk after sex change
冬瓜 = Winter agua
苦瓜 = Bitter agua
木瓜 = Wooden agua
傻瓜 = Crazy agua
蜜瓜 = Honey/sweet agua

老黄瓜 = Old perverted agua
黄西瓜 = Perverted western agua

the above translations were done with the help of Dante, Stippie and Brian during linguistics tutorial on 12/03/09...

Part II
Common swearings:

What the hell = 什么地狱
Oh shit = 噢狗屎
Shit you = 狗屎你
F**k = 他妈的
What the f**k = 什么他妈的
Son of a b***h = 母狗的儿子

What does my birthday mean?

According to a facebook application, it says:

You can trust your sixth sense. Life is exciting so routine job is not your interest. You have great ideas and fantastic imagination. You often feel tired of things and people around you. Your Love, You can tell what's in the mind of another person just from looking into his/her eyes. You are paranoid and jealous and these are the cause of fights between you and your lover. Sometimes the thing you believe in is just your imagination.

I miss you

For sometime I have been searching
And thinking of you in a distance
When you are close to me
I feel relaxed and comfortable
I feel happy
And the best is seeing your warm smile.

Now that I am far
I am starting to feel something
Inside that I could not express
My heart fills with worry
When i do not chat with you
As if the gap between us had enlarged.

Everyday in my sleep
I will think and dream
About you
About our happy memories together
And about your warm smile
That brought joy and laughter to others.

It bothers me everyday
As we are far apart
I am sorry
I might not make it for Valentines
And with words coming out from the depths of my heart
Telling you that I love you
And I miss you very much.